I hope I am not seeing into my future

Tuesday Sept 22

Well, My net has reset so hopefully I can blog a bit more often now and hopefully keep it interesting.

As my last few posts have shown, my life is falling all to pieces right now. I will loose one of my dearest uncles, the question is just how long he will hold on. Another dear uncle (great uncle, technically) is in the hospital after a massive heart attack…and has been for a week. My father, whom I am estranged from by choice even though I do love him, has lost the middle toe and that bone at least half way into one foot to gangrene. My mother’s significant other has just returned home after getting three stints put in following a small heart attack… Oh, and since he will be out of work for at least the next two weeks, our finances are going to get even shakier…Yah, I could use some good news SOON.

Man, what a weekend

Monday, Sept 21

So, we got mom’s check Friday. One would think it would have been a fairly decent weekend. Turned out to be one of the most emotionally trying weekends I can remember.

Just One of Those Days

Sept 8

Been a day of nothing here. I got up and played chauffeur, then came home. Mom started breakfast and I noticed BC online. ‘Tis good to know he’s still kicking, though we didn’t get to talk. I knew mom would be calling any minute, so I didn’t message him. Figured I would give him time to deal with emails and what not. Next thing I know, he’s signing in and out and then gone. *sighs* At least I know he is more or less okay.

*Sigh*

Sept 2

*edit—Seems like writing this all out then doing the graphic above helped…maybe things ARE getting a tad easier*

*Sighs with feeling* Today has been long and mostly boring so far. I did get to chat with BC for a few minutes. You’d think I’d be more happy right now than I am. I guess not knowing when (if?) we will get to talk again is kind of weighing on me. How I can miss him so much when we’ve talked several times in the past few days is beyond me.

A More Personal Post 6

Saturday August 22

This visit was the last I will have with BC for who knows how long. At least 3 to 4 months, due to some of the company regulations and the fact he won’t have access to his passport for about that long.