RIP Uncle Sonny

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Sunday, Oct 18 2009

Last night at about 6:30 p.m., my uncle finally took his last breath. He’d been diagnosed with end stage cancer of the lungs, liver, and lymph about two months ago. There was nothing the doctors could do that would give him more than a week or two longer while taking his quality of life away. Sonny remained able to get around with help until about two weeks ago. After that, it went down hill pretty fast.

Not much longer…

Sunday, September 27

We’ve not long returned home from a visit with my Uncle Sonny. I almost wish I hadn’t gone. Seeing him like this hurts.

I hope I am not seeing into my future

Tuesday Sept 22

Well, My net has reset so hopefully I can blog a bit more often now and hopefully keep it interesting.

As my last few posts have shown, my life is falling all to pieces right now. I will loose one of my dearest uncles, the question is just how long he will hold on. Another dear uncle (great uncle, technically) is in the hospital after a massive heart attack…and has been for a week. My father, whom I am estranged from by choice even though I do love him, has lost the middle toe and that bone at least half way into one foot to gangrene. My mother’s significant other has just returned home after getting three stints put in following a small heart attack… Oh, and since he will be out of work for at least the next two weeks, our finances are going to get even shakier…Yah, I could use some good news SOON.

Finally a tiny bit of good news

Tuesday, Sept 22

Well, I’ve not long ago arrived at the hospital. When I got to his room, one of the doctors was in. Tommy will be going home today, but has a lot of changes to make if he wants this to be his only heart attack. He is not quite ready to quit smoking it sounds like but  we are going to help him find ways to quit and figure out what keeps him smoking. I will be quitting once this carton we just bought is gone and smoking outside effective as soon as we get home.

Yesterday we did get some more bad news. My uncle who has cancer has had hospice start caring for him at home. This makes me think he has taken a major turn for the worst. If he’s gotten to the point he can’t care for himself at all, that will be what takes him from this world. He has always been a very independent, on the go kind of man. We have at least had a little time to prepare, but its never enough. I am thinking this is going to be a long rough road between now and Christmas. *starts to sing Merle Haggard’s “If We Make It Through December”*

Man, what a weekend

Monday, Sept 21

So, we got mom’s check Friday. One would think it would have been a fairly decent weekend. Turned out to be one of the most emotionally trying weekends I can remember.

I sometimes wonder about myself…

Sept 12

Yesterday, my sister found out and passed on that our biological father (whom we both are somewhat estranged from) has gangrene in his foot. He is likely to loose at least one foot. Its possible it could be a lot more as the gangrene is in the bone now.

Just another post

Sept 12

Well, I am chilling at my uncle’s lady friends house. He’s gone inside to rest and I just don’t feel like being inside. I guess its my antisocial hour. He does look a lot better, and everyone is saying he is getting around better, eating better, etc.

I don’t see what all the hoopla is about!

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Sept 7

Tomorrow, our President is set to give a speech aimed at our children. I have received at least one email and heard several news reports with people criticizing this speech. I truly do NOT see the issue here.

My first complaint is simple. If you are raising your children to be free thinkers who go out to find more information about a subject under there own initiative, what are you worried about?!?!?! Some may say there children are too young to do so…okay, that’s possible. So, you’ve not taught your children to discuss the things they hear and see with you? You are too busy to initiate a conversation about the speech with them?

We’re both under the moon

Sept 4

Its a beautiful full moon out tonight. The weather here has been fantastic for days. Highs in the 80s, lows low enough I need a light blanket to sleep under at night. But it has me thinking about not having someone to truly share so many things with.